Nervous but...

It's just 6 weeks to the due date and I am so nervous. I can't think of anything else but this karate kid that is keeping me awake at odd hours. I am getting really tired as the days go by now - I get restless, my back hurts, headaches, but all these don't even come close to dampen my spirits as I count down the hours - yes, hours... I am THAT excited!

Being a first-time mom, I can't help but ask if I'll be a good mum, would I be able to tend to my baby's every need? Having a baby feels like putting your heart out of your body and watch it transform. If I can be half as good as my mum was, then I know I've won the jackpot! I didn't realize maternal instincts would set in so fast... I find myself turning my head to the sound of a baby, wanting to pick up and hug every baby I see these days. I always thought that whole "mother thing" comes after you've had your baby, not when the bun is still in the oven! It's really amazing and a bit scary to realize who soon one's life changes. I really wish this baby comes with a manual... I know, I know, it's just a wish and wishes sometimes come true, right?

I look forward to every ultrasound and doctor's visit. I have 6 more to go, that is if mini-me comes on the due date.